Today

Was my nan's funeral. To be honest I thought I was all cried out, but it started again yesterday when I stayed at her house and she wasn't there. It sounds stupid but I couldn't sleep without a light on an my radio going. Mum's sister had taken the photo's from the house and shared them between the siblings, so mum let choose what I wanted to keep for myself, which of course set me off again. On a lighter/possibly scary note for me, there were two pictures of my mum at about 20ish and it's me! We always have the "you look like each other" etc thing, but this seriously freaked both of us out, you cannot tell the difference between her then and me now :)

However, the strangest thing about today for me was I had to be the strongest of my parents and me. Obviously I knew my mum would be really upset - it was her mum after all, but I never thought I'd have to comfort my dad like I did.

RIP Nan

I'm sorry if you find this post corny or whatever, but I just don't care.

My wonderful Nan passed away today and I never thought I could be this upset. She was an amazing woman who worked not only at bringing up three children (one of them being my mum)but as a nurse at Stafford Infirmary for over 35 years. She was one of the most kind, generous, smiley people I knew, and until she became ill nothing was ever too much trouble for her. She was a typically mother figure, making sure hunger and thirst was dealt with. I loved going to visit her when I was a child, she always took me to town and bought me sweets or a toy. I also remember being so excited when she came to visit for Easter or Christmas, making the bread sauce together and then Nan falling asleep after the Queen's speech :) She would always play monopoly or cluedo with me, and even to this day she always sent me gifts (money for Easter wine or Birthday wine she called it).

I know that I have inherited some things from her. My nose, according to my mum, wanting to help people and caring way too much about things.

I'm going to miss you more than you'll ever know.